urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99 But I haven't got a stitch to wear angrdwrf99 2008-10-18T05:18:47Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:46545 2008-10-18T05:18:47Z 2008-10-18T05:18:47Z Cute is what we aim for ugh....i've never felt like vomiting more than right now....<br /><br />Here's a survey I stole from Sara and Leitch on myspace. <br /><br />Are you taken​ or singl​e?​<br />Single<br /><br />Name somet​hing you disli​ke about​ the day you'​re havin​g?​<br />My mom isn't talking to me because she's pissed that I don't "talk" to her about stuff. <br /><br />What would​ happe​n if you had a baby with the last perso​n you kisse​d?​<br />The kid would have great parents. <br /><br />Last place​ you hugge​d someo​ne?​<br />In a car in the parking lot next to my house<br /><br />Do you know anyon​e named​ Matt?​<br />Kuntzy! I love that crazy mofo. <br /><br />What color​ is your hair?​<br />Black and blue<br /><br />is your hair curly​ or strai​ght?​<br />Its curly when its wet<br /><br />Last bever​age you consu​med?​<br />Iced green tea from Panera<br /><br />Who was the last perso​n you talke​d to on the telep​hone?​<br />Rob<br /><br />Who was the last perso​n you took a pictu​re with?​<br />I think Heather at the octoberfest<br /><br />Last CD you playe​d?​<br />The new Cute is what we aim for<br /><br />Have you ever chang​ed cloth​es in a vehic​le?​<br />Yes<br /><br />Who did you last go out to eat with?​<br />My parents<br /><br />Is the sun shini​ng?​<br />not to me<br /><br /><br />Are you happy​ with your life right​ now?<br />No<br /><br />Last thing​ you watch​ed on youtu​be?​<br />Palin and clinton skit<br /><br />How many hours​ of sleep​ o you get every​ night​?​<br />6-8 usually<br /><br />Are you curre​ntly jealo​us?​<br />I am now<br /><br /><br />Are you close​ with your mom?<br />She's not talking to me right now<br /><br />What were you doing​ at 10pm Thurs​day night​?​<br />I was at work<br /><br /><br />Is there​ anybo​dy you'​re reall​y disap​point​ed in right​ now?<br />I couldn't be more disappointed in him<br /><br /><br />Do you have your eye on anyon​e right​ now?<br />I don't even know<br /><br />Do you think​ you will be in a relat​ionsh​ip 3 month​s from now?<br />Probably<br /><br />Have you ever in anywa​y,​ been betra​yed by someo​ne you trust​?​<br />Yes, this explains why i'm disappointed in someone right now<br /><br /><br />Is there​ someo​ne you want to see right​ now?<br />Yes, but I don't know why<br /><br />Is there​ anyth​ing your excit​ed for?<br />Maybe seeing copeland next thursday<br /><br />Is there​ anyth​ing that brigh​tened​ up your day today​?​<br />No this day has been shit since it started<br /><br />Are you one who worri​es a lot?<br />Yes<br /><br />Are you an hones​t perso​n?​<br />Yes I try to be<br /><br />Do you care what peopl​e think​ of you?<br />The people I care about I do<br /><br /><br />What are you sick of?<br />Being the better person<br /><br />Do you like your hair up or down?​<br />Down<br /><br />McDon​alds or Subwa​y?​<br />Subway hands down<br /><br />Do you have more guy or girl frien​ds?​<br />My girlfriends are like guys<br /><br />If you could​ meet any celeb​rity right​ now who would​ it be?<br />Fuck the celebritys I want to get networking with their agents<br /><br />Who/​what do you miss?​<br />being happy, not worrying<br /><br />What was your highl​ight of the week?​<br />I don't know, drinking coors light in a can at merrit house with heather n tricia. <br /><br />Would​ you ever go back in the past?​<br />I think so<br /><br />What are you weari​ng?​<br />Mickey mouse pj pants and an armor for sleep shirt and a hoodie, and leopard print slippers<br /><br />Have you ever falle​n aslee​p in someo​ne'​s arms?​<br />Yes<br /><br />What are you doing​ tonig​ht?​<br />Sleeping<br /><br />What'​s on your mind right​ now?<br />A decision I need to make<br /><br />Does anyon​e have feeli​ngs for you?<br />yes <br /><br />Does the last perso​n you held hands​ with mean anyth​ing to you?<br />He does even though he's a complete retard. <br /><br />Did you ever waste​ too much time on a certa​in boy or girl?​<br />Yes...<br /><br />Anyth​ing you'​re givin​g up on?<br />I think I might<br /><br />Is there​ anyon​e getti​ng on your nerve​s at the momen​t?​<br />Yes<br /><br />Do you think​ you are a good perso​n?​<br />I'm an awesome person<br /><br />Is there​ a perso​n of the oppos​ite sex who means​ a lot to you?<br />yes...<br /><br />If you could​ chang​e your eye color​ would​ you?<br />No my eyes are pretty<br /><br />Who did you last get into a big argum​ent with?​<br />Rob?<br /><br />Have you ever had a reall​y big fight​ with a best frien​d?​<br />Wasn't huge, it was stupid we made up right away. <br /><br />Ever kisse​d someo​ne who'​s name start​s with an A?<br />Not that I can think of, but I used to be kind of a make-out slut<br /><br />When will your next kiss be?<br />I don't know<br /><br />Do you have a best frien​d to lean on?<br />Yeah I have multiples<br /><br />Have you lost a bestf​riend​ recen​tly?​<br />Yeah, he's retarded. <br /><br />Did you ever like someo​ne you know you shoul​dn'​t have?​<br />Yup<br /><br />Is there​ someo​ne you'​d like to fix thing​s with?​<br />Yes, but everyone pretty much thinks its not worth it<br /><br />Who was the last girl you had a conve​rsati​on with?​<br />Girls at work tonight<br /><br />Do long dista​nce relat​ionsh​ips work?​<br />They do if both are willing to stick it out<br /><br />Last time someo​ne yelle​d at you?<br />Um....can't remember<br /><br />Could​ you go out in publi​c looki​ng like you do now?<br />No I look like a dundalk house wife<br /><br />Who did you last piss off?<br />No clue<br /><br />Did you see the perso​n you like today​?​<br />No<br /><br />Would​ you prefe​r to fall in lust or love?​<br />love urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:46200 2008-10-01T17:27:35Z 2008-10-01T17:27:35Z Death Cab Back to work today. Had my Mythology midterm. Pretty easy. I'm taking a songwriting class, which I regret taking. Its boring one on one with a guy who's songs i'm not a fan of. He shows me his songs, and how they are in this key or that key and how when he's writing he trys to invent ways to shift keys and blah blah. Basically he's a theory slave and thats not how I write. I'm more at the heart of songwriting so its pretty annoying. But whatever, I guess i'll suck it up. I've had the house to myself all week. I've just sat around the house all day the past couple days by myself, got a lot of school work done, but I feel like I need to get into something. Feeling a little bummed. I've been staying away from bars, not really feeling like drinking. ::shrugs:: I don't know. I don't even know where the open mics are anymore. But I should find out and start doing them again. I really need to use this time in a productive way because I am getting really old fast. Anyways, Speaking of songwriting....this is my new favorite song. <br /><br />Your new twin sized bed- Death Cab For Cutie<br /><br />You look so defeated lying there in your new twin size bed.<br />With a single pillow underneath your single head.<br />I guess you decided that that old queen holds more space than you would need.<br />Now it's in the alley behind your apartment with a sign that says it's free.<br /><br />And I hope you have more luck with this than me.<br /><br />You used to think that someone would come along.<br />And lay beside you in a space that they belong.<br />But the other side of the mattress and box springs stayed like new.<br />What's the point of holding onto what never gets used?<br /><br />Other than a sick desire for self-abuse.<br /><br />And I try not to worry, but you've got me terrified.<br />It's like your some kind of hurry to say goodbye, say goodbye, say goodbye.<br /><br />You look so defeated lying there in your new twin size bed.<br />You look so defeated lying there in your new twin size bed urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:45941 2008-09-30T17:09:56Z 2008-09-30T17:10:33Z Wyclef I forgot about this. I haven't written on here since 2006. Although at this point I don't feel that there was much to write about anyways. Good to see everyone is still on here doin their thing. I think i'll start writing in here again. Even though I really have nothing interesting to talk about other than my ever changing decisions, and love life. Should I update for the past two years? When we left off Kryss had vanished with no word leaving a trail of drunken bad decision making on my part. For about a year I vomited at least once a week from drinking too much. The restuarant was finally opened. I worked 90 hr weeks for a good year before I lost my mind and decided that I had to do something more with my life than be a bar manager at a restuarant. I dated around a little bit. Took an awesome trip to Cancun Mexico with Hamilton, Heather, and Carlos. I went back to England for two weeks because my brother had tongue cancer and had a huge operation. What else? I started dating Rob. Lets see, I started Goodbye Skyline with Ken & Pete. I got to see a lot of people I hadn't seen in a long time. I got a nintendo wii for christmas! I went to the beach in the summers. Had some really great times. This past spring, I lost my pop pop. That was probably the most devistating thing i've ever gone through. He had a stroke, we had to go through the whole decisions on what to do, how to treat, hospice. My brothers and I sat by my pops side day and night for about 9 days before he finally passed away. It took a toll on me for a while because if you know me, you know how much I adored my pop pop. Two weeks later, my cat Zena sneezed out a polyp from her nose. She had this operation to remove the tumor from her nasal passage. But she is doing well now, though, she does have cancer. They said they have no way of telling how fast it will grow. In the mean time she's healthy and happy so as long as shes not in pain, she's still living a good life. Which I guess brings us up to date. I decided to go back to college so in August I started back up. Rob and I after a year and a half went our seperate ways. Not really worth getting into, just something that happens. I think it was for the best considering I never really got over Kryss. As dumb as that sounds, we eventually got back in touch. I know why he stopped talking and its a long story to get into. But everyone has that one they can't shake, he is mine. So naturally, being suddenly single, I ran right to New Orleans to see him. I guess to see if I still felt the same way. We hadn't seen eachother in 3 years.... the bad news is, it wasn't wierd and It pretty much confirmed that I'm retarded in love with the boy and will probably never get over him. The good news is, I SEEN NEW ORLEANS. I wasn't there very long. I flew in Friday and left Sunday. Kryss and his family showed me all around the French Quarter. Went to the New orleans museum of art. We went to where the levees overflowed during Katrina. It was pretty sad to go see after 3 years, most of the houses aren't even gutted yet. Seeing the spray paint markings on all the houses symbolizing if bodies were found, if people were rescued, if the house was evacuated was pretty surreal. The house his family lived in at the time is not even there now. But the city was absolutley charming and my kind of place. Musicians everywhere on the streets. Not just acoustic guitars, there were drummers, singers, horn sections, tap dancers, Mimes. I can't wait to go back. I def need to do Mardi Gras! As far as the whole Kryss thing, who knows what will happen. Going back to school has been great. I have a whole new outlook on my education this time around. Seeing my options without a degree at this point is not gonna cut it. So thats my big update. I guess I can move forward from here. Everything happens for a reason. What will be will be and all that. I never cease to amuse myself with the things I do. But what I have to be grateful for is a huge support system full of friends and people that love me. I am not afraid to do pretty much anything at this point. I'm just going to work with what I got and try to stop looking at the future so much. Enjoying life as i'm living it, and maybe when things don't work out the way I hope, I won't be as disappointed. I think its going to be an interesting year. I've been staying away from bars and drinking. The last thing I need to do when i'm sad is drink myself stupid. I've been trying to get good work outs in. Really do positive things for myself. Anyways, till next time. <br /><br />".....so innocent so pure, with no thoughts of insecurity. Live life to the fullest. Be what I wanna be.." Wyclef urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:45696 2006-06-14T07:35:53Z 2006-06-14T07:35:53Z Armor for sleep Okay so i've been drowning my sorrow in beer big time. Why be sad? Lets drink till we can't feel feelings anymore. Still haven't heard a word from Kryss. Everytime I think about it, I can feel the vomit rising in my throat. I have some interest in a couple people. Not sure whats going on with any of it. Just enjoying it. When the truth is, whenever I get in my car to drive home at night, I dwell until I fall asleep. It seems to be the first thing I think about in the morning, and its so incredibly distracting. I'm moving on, and I know the hurt isn't going to fade away overnight. I can't believe this happened. ::shrugs:: What can ya do? Except write really mean songs about him, and hope to god he feels as miserable as I do right now. What sucks is, I hope he's not hurt. I wouldn't wish this feeling upon anyone, let alone someone I care that much about. Whatever. I hate when things are out of my control.<br />In other news, The restuarant is open. TMack and Broanal work with me now. Thats AWESOME! Good times are being had. Its been so much work, but I get my first paycheck tomorrow! The tips i've been making have been delicious so i'm very aroused. <br />My hand is very veiny looking right now. Wierd. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:45427 2006-05-28T08:17:10Z 2006-05-28T08:17:10Z The Fray Hung out with Stan tonight. We watched Fresh Prince of Bel-air and snuggled. It was really nice. I am interested. Were hanging out Monday, so I guess we'll see...<br />Also, I've developed quite the taste for Pinot Grigio. Yum. I made this bombin' mint strawberry sangria, maybe thats what started it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:45105 2006-05-26T06:34:43Z 2006-05-26T06:34:43Z The Fray Okay, so life is still fucking wierd. But I don't hate it. I'm actually in a very interesting place. I'm excited, but not sad, at least not most the time anymore. My heart still wants to know what happened to Kryss. But as far as moving on, i've def. got that part down in the last couple weeks. So the guy I had previously mentioned, I hung out with some more. Good times were had. But somethings went down, and I think he may have a girlfriend he lied about not having. HAHA. Just ask me, I'll tell you the whole situation. It is hilarious. <br /><br />I met a cowboy. No really, he's a real live cowboy from Texas. I met him at The Still open mic the monday before last. He was by himself, and you know how much I love to talk to strangers. So I went and made friends with him. On my way back after playing I kept gettin' caught up by conversations, which I kept trying to get away from but couldn't. He waved goodbye, and I was convinced I wouldn't see him again after that being that he was only in town for two weeks. I went this past monday, and he was there. We chatted, and wound up at the diner down the street till about 3am playing random stuff on the juke box. He knew all the words to "Your song" by Elton John and "Forever your girl" by Paula Abdul. LOL. Unfortunately, Marie was there with us..... so that killed the game a little bit. I dropped him off at his hotel, and got a kiss. We agreed to meet up the next day. I went to the monkey, played a sloppy set, and off to meet Cowboy Ben I went. We met at Padonia station, and talked for the rest of the night. There was a lot of chemistry, and why wouldn't there be since he was leaving, and i've grown so fucking fond of goodbyes. (sarcasm) <br />I brought him back to his hotel, we sat in the car for a long while listening to music, talking, kissing... he didn't want to leave, I didn't want him to leave. On the way home, all I could do was laugh at myself. He was an unusual find. He wanted to stay in touch, so I guess we'll see. Who knows, maybe he'll find his way back to Baltimore. I've seen enough planes this year...But i'll always wonder about the cowboy that got away. <br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/cowboyben3.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a><br /><br /><br />Sammys finally has all of the required license to open. Were opening the doors tomorrow night and saturday night for some light business. Grand Openings Tuesday-Thursday. Then up and fully running. Everyone we have fed are going nuts over how good the food is, and no shit, the food is dynamite. I love Sam. I love all those guys. Its been wonderful being a part of this whole process and to finally see it open and get working with the public, its totally going to pay off. Funnest part is, Ms. Tricia Mack is now an Official employee of Sammys Trattoria! <br />What have we been doing after working all day? <br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/endoftheworldasweknowit.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a><br />Boozin' of course. What a family...<br />My throat hurts... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:44940 2006-05-19T18:03:24Z 2006-05-19T18:03:24Z Morrissey Still trying to get this gosh darn restuarant up. Were sooo close we can taste it. Meanwhile theres been a lot of card playing, food tasting, booz drinking, and hanging out. Mostly between me, Ben, and Lou. Good times have been had. I love those guys. My job owns. <br />Lets see, I took a random trip to salsbury. That resulted in me getting fucking wasted, sitting in my car to listen to music so I wouldn't bum anyone out with my drunken crying. I woke up a while later in the back seat listening to the Pixies, with muddy foot prints EVERYWHERE. I finally stumbled back in the house, and fell asleep for a while. <br />Anyways, so heres the deal. Kryss stopped talking to me. Not sure why, won't return calls, emails, text messages...etc. I know he's dealing with getting discharged from the military early. I guess he's stressed, but his actions have pretty much showed me something that i'm kinda grateful I found out now. If i'm not the person he comes to, then i'm never gonna be. If he is that selfish to leave me sick and worried like I was than, well, time to cut my losses and move on. As much as that hurts to say, because I love him very much. Its better it happened now. <br />Anyways, I actually went out with a guy a couple nights ago. Very interested, he's very cute. Got a lot going on. Not necessarily looking to get into something serious, but its fun to be excited about something again. Were going out sunday, we'll see what happens. <br /><br />So I guess thats whats going on for now. Margheritas anyone? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:44654 2006-05-08T03:24:50Z 2006-05-08T03:24:50Z Rascal Flatts Funny story, so as you all know i've been one of the Judges for the Dundalk Idol contest. So i'm judging a couple weeks ago, and theres a guy who sings extremely well. Part of the judging is to play up the comments, nobody really takes it seriously...or at least I thought. So anyways, the guy sings, I playfully comment by saying "I hope thats not a wedding ring on your finger, b/c you def. won me over" or something along those lines. Never thought another word about it. Last night was the next round, I didn't have to judge this one, but I was there for support. He sang, I grabbed him told him he sounded good. He (smiling btw) points over to the corner and says "Thats my wife," Thinking that were joking, I laugh and say "Oh well, maybe the next time around" and he sneered at me and said "I don't think so" and walked away... then it hit me, this fucking guy honestly though I was trying to hook up with him. The rest of the night was spent by his wife (who i'm way cuter than anyways...just saying) shooting me dirty looks, and them being overly affection everytime I came in their general area. Meanwhile, dude is way older too. Wow. What an asshole...<br /><br />Other news? <br />Restuarant is still not open.<br />I still have no idea when i'm going to see Kryss. And on top of that, feeling kinda neglected...<br />My stomach is in knots most days, and sometimes it kinda feels like somebody is standing on my chest, so thats not good...<br />I'm trying to chill out but its hard.<br />But I guess aslong as other people can't tell i'm losing my mind, then I'll be okay. <br />Did powerhour with Hammy, Carlos, and Brian the other night. Good times. <br />Can't wait to go bowling again.<br />Probably going to Tims friday for the bbq. Good stuff<br />Mack and I got our pictures taken with dudes in Speedos i'll post that when I get it on the computer. <br />I'm going to go to open mic at the still tomorrow....yeah....good times... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:44302 2006-04-19T04:53:12Z 2006-04-19T04:53:12Z Mae Today:<br />10am vet appointment, Zena needed an allergy shot.<br />11am at the gym<br />12pm in the shower<br />1pm At the restuarant<br />3pm Delicious overroasted chicken sub<br />5pm Annapolis<br />7pm Kickass dress from Hechts was bought (also, 3 sizes smaller than previous shopping trip)<br />8pm Spit lettuce at the phone while talking to Kryss, who finds it hilarious, and continues to make fun of me for the next 20 minutes.<br />10pm Tin Foil wrap my hair extensions to darken the rest of my hair<br />12am Sitting here with tin foil on my head<br />1am Wish my boobs were bigger, its the only way my new dress will look more smokin' <br /><br />Tomorrow:<br />8am Gym<br />9am Shower<br />10am Restuarant<br />4pm Interview with Baltimore sun for the restuarant<br />7pm Judge Dundalk Idol competition (YESs!!!)<br /><br />So yeah. Pretty exciting but now really. Got some fun music projects going on. But I really just wanna see my Kryssofer..... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:44143 2006-04-14T21:46:30Z 2006-04-14T21:46:30Z Panic! At the disco No Kryss this weekend = A very upset, disgusted, disappointed Mandy<br />Worse of it is, I don't know when I actually will get to see him at this point. I swear instead of it getting easier, it just continues to get harder and hurt more and more as the time passes, and i'm so tired of being on edge and feeling psycho about it. <br /><br />Fuck the military.<br /><br />My cat is sick, and I can't afford to take her to the vet. I'm a failure of a pet owner, but she still loves me. Its not life or death or anything, but she probably needs an antibiotic. Her skin rash is back, and she's sneezing all over the place. Hooray for a cat with bad allergies. I feel bad about it tho. <br /><br />I'm playing tomorrow, at the Moonlight cafe' on Liberty road. So come to that if you can. 7-9<br /><br />Going to Tim Bayers tonight. Good times will be had indeed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:43900 2006-04-12T02:42:10Z 2006-04-12T02:42:10Z Dashboard Put your ipod/Limewire/playlist on shuffle.<br />Press forward for each question.<br />Use the song title as the answer to the question.<br />No cheating!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />How am I feeling today?:<br />Noone really wins this time: Copeland<br /><br />Will I get far in life?<br />Rites of Spring: The Bravery<br /><br />How do my friends see me?<br />Green Eyes: ColdPlay<br /><br />What is the story of my life?<br />Nothing Wrong: Jimmy Eat World<br /><br />What was highschool like?:<br />City Hall: Tenacious D<br /><br />How can I get ahead in life?:<br />There goes the fear: Doves<br /><br />What is the best thing about me?:<br />The seven deadly sins: Flogging Molly<br /><br />How is today going to be?<br />This Town: Hot Hot Heat<br /><br />What is in store for this weekend?<br />Empty Room: Marjorie Faire<br /><br />What song describes my parents?:<br />No Brakes: The Bravery<br /><br />To describe my grandparents?<br />Black and Blue: Counting Crows<br /><br />How is my life going?:<br />Let go: Waking Ashland<br /><br />What song will they play at my funeral?:<br />Your Beautiful: James Blunt<br /><br />How does the world see me?:<br />Worth its wait: Further seems forever<br /><br />Will I have a happy life?:<br />Beautiful Child: Rufus Wainwright<br /><br />What do my friends really think of me?:<br />Group Four: Massive attack<br /><br />Do people secretly lust after me?:<br />Cavanaugh Park: Something Corporate<br /><br />How can I make myself happy?:<br />Fallin' down: Goo Goo Dolls<br /><br />What should I do with my life?:<br />Rachel: Ben Folds Five<br /><br />Will I ever have children?:<br />A favor house atlantic: Coheed & Cambria<br /><br />What is some good advice for me?:<br />Singled out: New found glory<br /><br />How will I be remembered?<br />Losing Lisa: Ben Folds Five<br /><br />What is my signature dancing song?:<br />I will play the game beneath the spin light: Brand New <br /><br />What do I think my current theme song is?:<br />Older Chests: Damien Rice<br /><br />What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:<br />Lizzy: Ben Kweller<br /><br />What type of men/women do you like?<br />Again I go unnoticed: Dashboard Confessional urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:43580 2006-04-10T02:37:54Z 2006-04-10T02:37:54Z Starting Line Okay. Sammys Trattoria is in full swing right now. We've been in there working on stuff, hopefully the week of the 24th we'll open.<br />Its been a lame week. I had three funerals to go to. Laura and Katies dad passed away suddenly and it was one of the most heartbreaking things to experience. I love that family so much, I wish I could take their pain away, but thats life I guess. <br />No Kryss, still waiting to find out when he's coming, will this be the lucky week, stay tuned. <br />Last night was my unofficial last night at Chiaparrellis. Its breaking my heart to go, I love everyone so much. <br />Tricias birthday party was last night, all i'm going to say is Goldschlager was involved, which would explain the great urge to vomit all day long. But it was fun, we played oldschool supermario bros 2. It makes me wanna go rebuy all those games. They were so much fun. I didn't get home till 8am, and passed out for an hour or so, been up since. I'm going to pass out now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:43347 2006-03-20T06:22:06Z 2006-03-20T06:26:39Z Panic! At the disco OMG Panic! At the disco, I love you so much. I want to have 8 billion of your children. <br /><br />FINALLY, my last week at Chiapparellis, my last day is Friday.<br />Also, I GET TO SEE KRYSS NEXT WEEK!!! I have to drive to VA cause he's going to be at a conference for a week, but then he'll be here with me. I'm so EXCITED.<br /><br />Okay, so have I ever mentioned that I can't listen to the following songs without crying, EVER. I'm brought to tears almost every single time. <br />"California" Copeland<br /> "I miss the way you sing low, <br /> so I can't hear your voice over the radio in my car,<br /> But you know everyword they say,<br /> you know just the right things to say when distance rips us farther away" - Kryss and I were listening to this driving one day, and both started crying. I like my boys emo.<br /><br />"Live like you were dying" Tim Mcgraw <br /> "And all the sudden goin' fishing, <br /> Wasn't such an imposition.<br /> And I went three times that year I lost my dad." I just wrote this and teared up. This song actually makes me BAWL. <br /><br />"I hope you dance" Leanne Womack<br /> "I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance<br /> Never settle for the path of least resistance<br /> Living might mean taking chances<br /> But they're worth taking<br /> Lovin' might be a mistake<br /> But it's worth making" - okay, so this is touching to me. Shut up. <br /><br />"Gracie" Ben Folds <br /> "You nodded off in my arms watching TV <br /> I won’t move you an inch even though my arm’s asleep <br /> One day you’re gonna want to go <br /> I hope we taught you everything you need to know <br /> Gracie girl<br /> And there will always be a part of me <br /> Nobody else is ever going to see but you and me <br /> My little girl" - This is a daddy daughter song. I've already decided that this will be the song my father and I dance to when I get married. Yup. But everytime I hear it, I think about how much I love my dad, and cry. Which is probably why that "Live like you were dying" part about his dad makes me cry, also, that song "Butterfly kisses" Can't listen to it, without being reduced to a babbling mess. <br /><br />"In Your eyes" Peter Gabriel Oh come on, anyone that hasn't cried during that scene in Say anything is heartless and probably ugly.<br /><br />"One more time" The Cure -The lyrics are kinda sad, but that songs overall emotion is depressing.<br /><br />"You don't see me" Josie & The Pussycats (I know I know) I love you Babyface, for writing the movie soundtrack. "This is the place in my heart, this is the place where i'm falling apart, isn't this just where we met, or is this the last chance that i'll ever get, its twisted and faded, its too complicated, cystal and see through and not enough to you.." A lyric worthy of any unrequited crush. <br /><br />I was bored at work thinking about this stuff. <br /><br />In more fun news, I GOT HAIR EXTENSIONS!!!!! CHECK IT OUT!!!<br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair8.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br />TADA!!!! Looks totally real right?<br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair14.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><br />Heres more <a name="cutid1"></a> <br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair26.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair25.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair23.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair10.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair7.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair5.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hair2.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><br />I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:43048 2006-03-15T06:26:05Z 2006-03-15T06:27:49Z Panic! At the disco Thanks to Hamilton and Fuso, I accidentally called out of work saturday, and went to visit Broanal. I gotta say, it was the greatest time that could be had. With a suprise guest appearance by Tricia and Jamy! Needless to say there was a lot of beer, and weed involved, we had soooo much fun. I met a lot of characters, and fell in love with a little band Hamilton showed me a video for before we left. Panic! At the disco is my new favorite band. I &lt;3 them in an almost unhealthy obsessive way, just the way I like to love. Haha. Check out my photo documentary of the trip. <a name="cutid1"></a> <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/stonerbro.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> The Broanal in her natural habitat. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/what.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> ::knock at the door:: SUPRISE! ITS MACK!! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/meanheather.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Before the nights festivities, we enjoy a delicious meal from the Taco Hut (pizza hut and taco bell all in one restuarant?!) <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/fuzzybug.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> What is this mysterious fuzz on my leg?! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/broanham.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Enjoying a power hour before hitting the Monkey Barrel. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/bfffe.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Good times are being had, you can tell by Macks Thumb up! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/rockinout.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> We enjoy some pre-game music provided by Jamy! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/80snight.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Shanna and Tricia finding a cozy seat at the Monkey Barrel. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/erinbronme.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Keepin' it real with my homies. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/fusanheather.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Fuso and Broanal enjoy a beer or 10. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/fusolove.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Fuso gets MAD bitches, infact, we may have to change his name to Chris "bitches" Fuso. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hangoverbreakfast.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Yum Yum, hangover breakfast! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/wind.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Lets go to the beach! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/orangeshirt.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Silly Fuso.. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/sign.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Lets not eat at that restuarant. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/beach.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> A little too chilly to jump in. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/beachbums.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> I &lt;3 my Broanal. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/beachcrew.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> Friendship is gathering that many people to drive to the ocean with a few hours notice. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/trishnjamy.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> A fun get away! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hotdogman.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> THE HOTDOG MAN!! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hotdogman2.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> The Hotdog man Angels! <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/girls.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> "Aint no holla back girls" hehehe <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hauntedhouse.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> We thought it would be fun to go into the haunted house ride together, so we squeezed in. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/hanutnedhouse.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> This is where the ride broke down in the middle of the haunted house, because the three of us were just too darn fat... We had to walk out, with the other people that got stuck before us, we got our $3 back, AND they shut the ride down for the rest of the day. HAHAHA! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:42871 2006-03-09T08:02:59Z 2006-03-09T08:02:59Z Mae Well, i've got one last week at Chiapparellis before the big move. Kryss is coming in April, so i'm pretty syked about that. I finally sleeping okay thats to some sleeping pills. I haven't had much to write about musically...but I still do love me some karoake. I'm down 15 lbs thank you Bally Total Fitness. I've pretty much been waking up, working out, showering, going to work, coming home, talking to Kryss, and thats about it. <br />I bought hair extensions, it'll be better than dying and bleaching my hair out so much. And they won't fade! So pink streaks will be back soon. Tomorrow I go to get all my hair redone in black. Next week I get the extensions. Hooray for fake hair. <br />I'm pretty bummed, Kryss was trying to come this weekend, and we thought he was going to but the fucking military messed that up. But just a couple more weeks, and hopefully Sam will let me slide out to Florida for a couple days so I can meet his folks. <br />Sam and I are going to some wine tasting thing tomorrow. ::shudder:: I'm still wine shy after the bottle of Chardonnay I drank last year and threw up my life for a whole day. <br /><br />So Troy and Kristen have set a wedding date. November 3rd! I really like the dresses she picked out! Its going to be a good time. Buttrum get togethers with open bar always prove to be goodtimes, as long as nobody is driving and getting arrested. <br /><br />Now for the most exciting news, I'M A GODMOTHER!!! Grace finally had the baby Tuesday afternoon. Her name is Ellie McKayla Rogers. She was 8 lbs 2 ounces. She's so cute and pretty. I'm beaming. It was a pretty hectic couple days of being in and out of the hospital, but she's finally here!! <br /><br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/ellie3.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/ellie2.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/Ellie1.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a><br /><br />So excited... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:42715 2006-01-31T03:51:30Z 2006-01-31T03:54:37Z Ben Folds I'm not envious of anyone having to go back to school. Not at all. Not even a little bit. <br />My birthday was awesome. Pretty wrecked up after it was all said and done. EVERYBODY bought me shots, i'm currently shaking my fist towards Chris Hamiltons direction for introducing Goldschlager into the mix. Yay for that. Needless to say I was pretty much in pain most of saturday. Saturday night at work was CRAZY cause it was Sammys last day. <br />So I went up to Chiapparellis tonight to give my two weeks to Bryan. I went like this, I came in Bryan smiled and said "We have to talk don't we?" he knew it before I even said it. We went upstairs, I broke down and tears and hugged him. He did all the talking. He said it was fine, and he knows its not personal, and that he still wants me to pop in and go out with them and stuff. Then I cried more. He took it fine, just like I knew he would. Although, I cried the whole way up there, all during, the whole way back. But he asked me if I just wanted to stay and work until Sam gets ready to open, and I agreed. <br />It was really fucking hard, and i'm still sad about it, but at least the hard part is over. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:42465 2006-01-27T07:37:43Z 2006-01-27T07:37:43Z Jimmy eat world Welp as of 5:19am today I will be a whole 23 years old. The next month proves to be one that is life changing. I'm 9 lbs lighter, slightly fitter, and feeling a hell of a lot better, even though I totally just pigged out on Unos 4 cheese pizza for my birthday dinner. But things are looking good. Playing more again. One month before I can say, "Hello, I'm Mandy, manager at Sammys on Charles. and Biddle st." so BITCHES BETTER COME AND SEE ME!! More responsibility, one big happy family,.....and benefits. Yummy, I can get these wisdom teeth pulled out FINALLY! I've been getting out more. Oh OH, and i'm going to get my hair did tomorrow! So hopefully new hair will add to the new Mandy! <br />Birthday plans? <br />Up at 10.<br />Gym<br />Shower<br />Salon<br />Fabulous hair<br />Work<br />OUT!<br /><br />I haven't decided where I wanna go yet guys, but I'm getting off work around 8 so i'll be calling/text messaging. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:41920 2006-01-20T09:32:09Z 2006-01-20T09:37:34Z Jacks Mannequin Okay so here is whats up.<br />Sam (my manager) bought his own restuarant (currently Limoges corner of Charles and Biddle st. in Mt. Vernon) and is leaving Chiapparellis to pursue this. Mostly because he was completley fucked by the owner and his new wife and is very under appreciated. As you all know, my loyalty to Sam is that of a needy puppy. I fucking love this man like a brother and loved working for him. Fortunately for me, he offered me a job as his place as bar manager. He'll be GM, and i'll be right under him. This new job equals salary + tips + health benefits. So this is great news for me. I told mostly everyone about it, but for those of you who didn't know, thats whats happening. So I will be giving my two weeks at Chiapparellis in a week or so. We are going to change the name to Sammys. Yay! This is a very big deal for me, and i'll be doubling what I make now. I'll be sure to let everyone know when we open, its a beautiful restuarant with mezzanine seating! Which I LOVE! My bar is pretty too. But we are estimating mid March opening. <br />I've been working very hard at the gym too!! Motivation has been pretty steady and i've dropped 8 lbs. I'm VERY excited about that. Hard work does pay off. And i'm not torturing myself which makes it even better. <br />Kryss is coming sometime next month hopefully to visit. <br />Troy is getting married on a cruise in November. SO EXCITED! I'm a bridesmaid. But I already knew that was gonna happen. But the cruise sets off Nov. 18th-25th goes to Key West, Grand Cayman, & Cozumel Mexico. Good times will be had, hopefully the Crew will be in attendance cause thats the plan. Had an argument with my mom about the rooming situation. She finally agreed to the fact that i'm an adult, and I can sleep with my boyfriend. AMAZING for those of you who know the Burminator. So Kryss will be coming along! Which makes the whole situation way more fun and sexy. <br />I still love my new car. I treated it to an ultimate carwash today, and put protectant on the interior, and polished the rims today. <br />I took Lauras 18 yr. sister out tonight. Took her to Hamiltons for power half hour, she did well. <br />I'll be 23 next friday! <br />Working on new songs, and playing out a little more again. Yes. <br />I've been working three days a week all month, and will be till I leave. I would bitch, but i'm leaving. I'll be living in the new place for a while, but thats okay, it'll be worth it. <br />I feel good, for the first time in a long time I feel really good. I feel more productive, healthier, and happier. A better job, a better year, a better everything, a better me, and its a very exciting time to be Mandy right now. <br /><br /><div style="padding:8px;margin:15px;background-color:#CFCF95;color:#1A0A13;font-family: georgia, helvetica, trebuchet ms, verdana, sans-serif;"><h2 style="text-align:center;font-size:110%;background-color:#DFDFa5;padding:2px"><a href="http://thesurrealist.co.uk/trivia.pl?subject=Mandy&amp;gender=f" style="color:#000;background-color:#DFDFa5">Ten Top Trivia Tips about Mandy!</a> </h2> <ol><li>The Mandy-fighting market in the Philippines is huge - several thousand Mandy-fights take place there every day.</li><li>The moon is 400 times closer to the Earth than Mandy, and 400 times smaller!</li><li>Half a cup of Mandy contains only seventeen calories.</li><li>Mandy can give birth ten days after being born, and is born pregnant!</li><li>Julius Caesar wore a laurel wreath to cover up Mandy.</li><li>Mandy has only one weakness - the colour yellow.</li><li>White chocolate isn't technically chocolate, because it doesn't contain Mandy.</li><li>While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their Mandy.</li><li>Europe is the only continent that lacks Mandy.</li><li>Mandy can fly at an average speed of fifteen kilometres an hour!</li></ol><form action="http://thesurrealist.co.uk/trivia.pl" method="get" style="background-color:#5F5F42;color:#CFCF95;padding:4px;text-align:center">I am interested in <input name="subject" type="text"> - do tell me about<select name="gender"><option value="f">her</option><option value="m">him</option><option value="n">it</option><option value="p">them</option></select><input value="Go" type="submit"></form></div><br /><br /><br />haha this is so funny.<br />1. Kryss mom is from the Philippines. <br />2. Totally not true.<br />3. Haha yeah right. <br />4. Um....not me personally but some girls I know...<br />5. Yes yes he did.<br />6. I fucking hate the color yellow.<br />7. I'm the ingredient for your white chocolate baby.......that wasn't even kinda sexy.<br />8. Ten percent of men grind me.....now thats sexy.<br />9. Yes its true europe does not have me right now, but I wish I was there. I wanna go back.<br />10. 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You can take that one to the bank. <br /><br />Our next guest likes to fly around smelling cereal. <br /><br />I lost 5 lbs. YEEeeEESssSSSSsss. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:41299 2006-01-05T06:00:12Z 2006-01-05T06:00:12Z Alkaline Trio Seriously, what is UP with all the people that have these "If your a band trying to friend me...yada yada yada..i hate you....don't friend me..yada yada yada"...heres a clue, JUST DON'T FRIEND THEM ASSHOLE! Are you really that inconvenienced that you have to put up a warning against it? Myspace is a way for bands to promote their music to people who otherwise might not get to hear it. I can respect that. So quit being so gay about it. Just don't friend them if you don't want to. Damn. Also, they have a video series called "Guys gone wild" its for real too. Dudes flashin' dongs and nipples. Its so goofy looking. <br /><br />Anyways. Been working, still have the somewhat semi secret thing in progress that hopefully I can reveal to all in full confidence by this weekend. But in the mean time i've got my fingers crossed.<br /><br />More bad news two nights ago, my brothers friend/former Chiapparelli employee/former tenant in Billys house passed away New Years day. He went in the the hospital a few days before. See, John had always been a really big drinker, he started getting into drugs and stuff too. By the end he was up to drinking a case of hard liquor a week. His body just couldn't handle it anymore. He was 32 years old, same age as Troy. Its so sad. ::Sigh:: I ended the year with a funeral, and started the year with one. Even though I wasn't that close to John, its still upsetting. He was a nice guy, just made a lot of bad decisions. <br /><br />I wanna see Grandmas Boy. Everyone should see "The Ringer" its funny. I spit all over myself when I see the ads for Hostel. Gotta see that. Watched Excorcism of Emily Rose, it was alright. Not great, not bad. <br />I'm tired, worked a double the past two days. I'm dreading tomorrow..... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:41124 2006-01-02T06:43:30Z 2006-01-02T06:43:30Z Death cab for cutie Well 2005, it was nice. You have been better to me than most other years I have lived through, mostly better than that lame ass 2003 and 2004. The things I liked about this year:<br />-The songs I wrote.<br />-The songs I recorded, even though i'm going to re-record them. It was a step in a positive direction.<br />-Open mic at the Brass Monkey, even though I tend to be a ghost. <br />-My brothers wedding, even though I totally got caught making out with one of the guests. <br />-My brothers Bachelor party, "Dad, listen, its the killers....you LOVE the killers" being reminded of how drunk you were by your father is hilarious.<br />-I met Kryss. I fell in love with Kryss. And I continue to love Kryss.<br />-I judged the first ever Dundalk Idol competition. It was hilarious. The first round was excellent. The final round left me with my head in the toilet at my house afterwards, and the taste of southern comfort in my mouth for days. <br />-I went to work the day after that and my boss heard me throwing up in the bathroom and sent me home, BONUS DAY OFF!<br />-I started this year in LOVE with THE MUSIC! Awesome CD. Get it. <br />-I ended this year in LOVE with Deadbeat sweetheartbeat: The Juliana Theory. Yum!<br />-I took Kryss to the Ocean one night in June, we walked to the board walk, ate italian, and ice cream of the future. And had a really sweet romantic night afterwards.<br />-Leaving for England, longest.flight.ever<br />-Mutherfucking Scotland. <br />-Living in Harrogate England for five weeks. <br />-Crashing an English wedding at Ripley Castle. <br />-Riding a double decker bus.<br />-British Karoake<br />-Cider from a can<br />-Karringtons, Montys, & Revolution.<br />-Raspberry Mojitos.<br />-Flying back, Tricia and I got awesome seats, and the inflight movie was Anchorman.<br />-Going to California the first time, they have tall trees. <br />-Going to California the second time.<br />-Christmas was great. <br /><br />Along with good comes bad, but listing the bad just doesn't seem productive so i'm not going to do it. <br />I rang in my new year at Chiapparellis. Big Suprise. But my brother Troy came down and rang in the New Year with us. It wasn't as busy as we had anticipated so it wasn't so bad. I still got out late. I went over Troys last night and didn't get in till 7am this morning. Not such a bad new year. <br /><br />This year, I'm going to learn to be less critical of people. I need to be more accepting of why things happen and are the way they are. A lot of things are going to change for me soon, and I need to realize that it may change other aspects of my life, but hopefully only in a positive way. I want to be there more for my friends, and make more of an effort to let them know how much they mean to me. I want to look better, feel better, and be happier. I want to be more patient. I have to stop procrastinating. <br /><br />Thats all for now...<br /><br />"So this is the new year.<br />And i don't feel any different.<br />The clanking of crystal<br />Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).<br /><br />So this is the new year<br />And I have no resolutions<br />For selfl assigned penance<br />For problems with easy solutions<br /><br />So everybody put your best suit or dress on<br />Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once<br />Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn<br />As thirty dialogues bleed into one<br /><br />I wish the world was flat like the old days<br />Then i could travel just by folding a map<br />No more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways<br />There'd be no distance that can hold us back." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:40748 2005-12-19T06:18:45Z 2005-12-19T06:18:45Z *** Meme instructions: Take the first sentence (or paragraph, or WHATEVER) from the first post of each month of 2005.***<br /><br /><br />January-<br />"Happy 2005. SCrew you 2004. I'm closing that chapter of my life, and proceeding on as planned. I worked last night. Thank god Chad was there, I couldn't have taken that bar alone without crying and holding a gun to my head."<br /><br />February-<br />"Damn, Maroon FIVE!!! I &lt;3 them soooo much. DON'T JUDGE ME! WOw this year is super awesome so far. Since the wedding i've been laying low, promoting, recording a what not. The show saturday was very successful. Thanks to everyone who came out. I love you so hard. I had ten tickets left out of 50, and then had 14 come through the door without tickets. So, 54 people? NOT BAD!!!!"<br /><br />March-<br />"This week is amusing. I put up a new icon!!!! The other one was about 6 years old. I would like to thank Leitch for his help, your check is in the mail. I also put up a rough demo version of 3am Rush Hour on www.myspace.com/mandyrocks. So my van, and my tempo are broke down. That sucks."<br /><br />April-<br />"Okay. So after I play the brass monkey on saturday. I'm going to go to Palomas and play. YAY!! DOUBLE HEADER!!! And its soooo easy to roll around with an acoustic guitar!! Godbless its convenience. 3 shows this weekend....i'm so happy I just might shed a tear....yup....there it is, a single tear of joy! Things are looking up."<br /><br />May-<br />"This weekend = kick ass. Friday night was Dundalk Idol registration. Its all whitetrash and ghetto applicants. God i'm so glad i'm a judge in this one. I have front row for hilarious!! So Tricia and I went to the movies and saw AmityVille Horror. Now I love me some horror movies, that one went too far. I was so freaked out I wanted to throw and left the movie theatre completley nervous. Poor Tricia came home with me, and slept on my couch cause she scared."<br /><br />June-<br />"I can't wait to leave for a while. I'm so sick of everything. I'm having a sad pissy day. Maybe its cause I got my period, I don't know, but I feel like ripping someones head off and driving over top of it a hundred times. So I bought myself CDs to feel better. And I do feel slightly better. I got the new Alkaline Trio. Its delicious I really REALLY enjoy it. I also re-bought August and everywhere after by Counting crows. I wore mine out."<br /><br />July-<br />"The amount of bullshit thats been adding up is annoying. Okay. Got in a car accident with the red van. A woman drove into me, and totaled it. <br />A week after that my CDs were stolen out of my car, all my favorite CDs too. <br />Monday, I was trying to park and a woman hit me while driving my green van. Disasters happen in three.<br />I'm leaving for London June 18th. We just bought our tickets saturday. London was bombed like a mutha today. I'm horrified now. Whatever. I'm sure it'll be safer now than before."<br /><br />August-<br />"Okay, so 13 days left in England. I'm trying to make the best of it. A lovely place no doubt, but its not home. This trip really made me realize how attached to home I am, my mom and dad, my friends, my cat, my scene, my job, my co-workers...everything. But home is still weeks away, at least i'll have one day home before California. On which i'll be getting my hair did so I look pretty for my boy."<br /><br />September-<br />"When it rains it pours. Kryss (if you don't know already was born and raised in New Orleans till he left for the military) family has lost everything. His entire family is homeless, he hasn't heard from his aunt, and her kids. Everyone else got out in time. But his street is still under water. I can't even begin to imagine losing my home, especially being away for so long. It hurts me to know that he'll never be able to go home again. Things will never be the same for him, or his family."<br /><br />October-<br />"I joined Bally total fitness on thursday. I know, I thought it was pretty funny too. I've had two workouts with a personal trainer, now i'm on my own. But the past two have been great, although i'm incredibly sore in places I didn't know I had. It felt good. If this does nothing else than reduce my stress then it'll be worth it, of course losing weight and toning up my butt before there is no hope left would be preferred. I'm not getting any younger. So we'll see how this adventure goes."<br /><br />November-<br />"I've been pretty busy the past week or so. I have a cold but thats okay. First off, Halloween was awesome. A whole bunch of us went down to woodys in Fellspoint! Unfortunately my camera was out of commission, so I only have at home pics of my costume."<br /><br />December-<br />"My aunt Joyce has been sick for a very long time, and even though we've been prepared, it still came as a shock when I got a call from my father at work last night telling me she died. Off to South Carolina Tuesday morning. It'll be good to see the rest of the family, but what awful circumstances. Poor aunt joyce had such a hard time......my mom is a wreck. I'm no good with death, uncle delbert died this time of the year, now aunt joyce....its not fair." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:40553 2005-12-12T07:02:33Z 2005-12-12T07:02:33Z My aunt Joyce has been sick for a very long time, and even though we've been prepared, it still came as a shock when I got a call from my father at work last night telling me she died. Off to South Carolina Tuesday morning. It'll be good to see the rest of the family, but what awful circumstances. Poor aunt joyce had such a hard time......my mom is a wreck. I'm no good with death, uncle delbert died this time of the year, now aunt joyce....its not fair. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:40274 2005-11-30T10:47:38Z 2005-11-30T10:47:38Z Jack Mannequin i'm home.....<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/mando99/tg29.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br />I lace my Chucks<br />I walk the aisle<br />I take my pills<br />The babies cry<br />All I hear <br />Is what's playing through the in-flight radio<br />Now every word of every song<br />I've ever heard that made me <br />Want to stay<br />Is what's playing through the in-flight radio<br />And I<br />I am<br />Finally waking up<br /><br />Hours pass<br />And she still counts the minutes<br />That I am not there<br />I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this<br />Like every inch of me is bruised<br />Bruised<br />Don't fly fast<br />Oh, pilot can you help me<br />Can you make this last?<br />This plane is all I got<br />So keep it steady, now<br />'Cause every inch you see is<br />Bruised.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angrdwrf99:39946 2005-11-19T06:09:46Z 2005-11-19T06:10:49Z 30 hours and 35 minutes till my plane takes off for Sacramento. SOOOOO excited. <br /><br />Mmmm.....airplane cranberry apple juice, just tastes better when your on your way to the one you love.